It Still Hurts…
When I think of you
I feel tears coming
When I think of you
I feel fears summoning
What used to be warm
It is now cold
Hard like stones
Fragile as the old
Like mind games
Memories are bittersweet
Who knows what I’ll get
A trick or a treat
Giving everything I’d had
Literally til there was nothing left
Feels as though I died
Years ago, my last breath
Like snowy skies in the darkness
Everything is blurry
Confusion is never the word
Anxiety it is and constant worry
You’ll think it’s over
Because they’ve gone in a spur
But here I lie like it’s okay
In reality, it still hurts

I wrote this after going through the toughest breakup after 5 years. I’ve learned that true enough it’s going to hurt & you’ll take some of those bad vibes with you. Not on purpose but because that’s what you’re used to. Just realize & understand that it’s supposed to hurt so you don’t put yourself through anything to experience that pain again .. You learn what not to go through & what not to settle for going forward.. So while you’re hurting understand that you’re also healing…
– Sanaa Ali