It Still Hurts…

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When I think of you

I feel tears coming

When I think of you

I feel fears summoning

What used to be warm

It is now cold

Hard like stones

Fragile as the old

Like mind games

Memories are bittersweet

Who knows what I’ll get

A trick or a treat

Giving everything I’d had

Literally til there was nothing left

Feels as though I died

Years ago, my last breath

Like snowy skies in the darkness

Everything is blurry

Confusion is never the word

Anxiety it is and constant worry

You’ll think it’s over

Because they’ve gone in a spur

But here I lie like it’s okay

In reality, it still hurts

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I wrote this after going through the toughest breakup after 5 years. I’ve learned that true enough it’s going to hurt & you’ll take some of those bad vibes with you. Not on purpose but because that’s what you’re used to. Just realize & understand that it’s supposed to hurt so you don’t put yourself through anything to experience that pain again .. You learn what not to go through & what not to settle for going forward.. So while you’re hurting understand that you’re also healing…

– Sanaa Ali